Orang Kaya vs Orang Miskin

actually the title doesn't tell everything,mcm orang putih selalu cakap,don't judge a book by its cover..so begitu la isi karangan sy pada hari ini..hua3

ok,nak ceritanya seaawal pagi saya sudah bangun kerana sudah ber'date' dgn cik syud utk keluar merempit d jalanan Johor yg busy ni dengan tujuan ke PC Fair..ewah..seumur hidup sebelum ni skali je penah g PC Fair iaitu sewaktu *ewah ayat BM bole dipuji* nak beli laptop nih..so yg ni kira second time lah kan..makanya,merempitlah kami ke Danga City Mall..tp mungkin sedikit hampa sebab kedai kali ni x sebanyak dulu..walau bagaimanapun,hasil tangkapan hari ni bole la beli card reader sebab usb camera dh lama ilang..and LCD cleaner kerana screen laptop dh bertompok2 cendawan dah *maksudnya,semua sy beli bersebab*...

hasil pembelian sy tidak langsung menyumbang kepada pembangunan pesat ekonomi rakyat Malaysia, dan kalau semua yg g PC Fair beli macam sy,of cos tak tercapailah tujuan utama orang menganjur PC FAIR..


TAPI..

sedar tak bahawa adanya orang macam saya membuatkan jurang perbezaan antara si miskin dan si kaya tidak lah begitu ketara??? penting tau saya di kalangan korang2 semua.. mesti korang semua pikir "Why oh why?" sambil menghantuk dahi ke dinding..so utk memudahkan problem solving anda,I give u an analogy:

kalau korang tengah duk drive kereta 1000cc dkt tengah highway..pastu tiba2 dipotong oleh 2 buah BMW dan sebuah CRV..and then tak lama lepas tu lalu pulak kereta Honda..anda pun stop dkt R&R..mengenang nasib yg hanya naik kereta murah.."OMG..Why you have chosen me to be the poorest person in Malaysia??" tgh anda bermunajat d surau R&R,tiba2 orang datang tepi korang letak kat depan dia Beg Coach bersebelahan beg free anda dpt d booth Jom Heboh..lagi panjang munajat korang kan..dh siap 2 menapaklah anda penuh kekecewaan ke food court mengenang nasib malang bertimpa2..dah siap anda beli nasi campur lauk ikan keli,sayur bayam dan air sirap limau,anda pun cari tempat duduk utk memuaskan nafsu lapar..ade meja kosong..tapi...Mak Cik cleaner ni tak buat keje ke???? pinggan kotor n air suku nak abis besepah atas meja..huarghhhh..mengamuk lah anda sehingga bertukar hijau..cari punya cari mak cik cleaner then jumpe duk kutip pinggan satu persatu..baru je anda nak sergah dari belakang,siap dah susun ayat.."Ohoi,makan gaji buta ke?" anda terlihat aksi ngeri makcik cleaner yang tgh pilih2 ayam yg baru je disantap 1/8 dan letak dalam plastik..and nasi tu campur 4 pinggan nasi tak abis dh jadi sebungkus..dh siap2 bungkus,baru dia perasan ade makhluk hijau belakang dia..bila dia tanya, ade ape cik@encik? mesti tiba2 korang dah tuka skema jawapan, "Ni saya ade terbeli nasik lebih sepinggan, ingat kawan saya nak datang,tapi tak jadi pulak..Makcik nak makan?"

so, moral of the story is..kalau anda ke PC Fair dan mampu utk membeli at least cover iPad 2 or screen protector Samsung Galaxy SII,maka bersyukurlah kerana sudah mempunyai at least sebuah atau 8 buah gajet canggih di abad ini...masih ade yang tak mampu nak memenuhi even the most basic needs in Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs which are food, shelters and clothes *err,maksud saya any piece of cloth to cover your body,not Zara,or Levi's n so on* so,bersyukurlah dengan ape yg anda ade..dah kaya tu,pandai2 lah bayar zakat ye x? last but not least, one wisdom say I read from FB: "Aku menangis kerana tidak berkasut, sehingga aku bertemu orang tidak berkaki" so,tak susah mane pun kalau tak mampu tweet dkt Twitter via Blackberry..just live with what you have,don't live for what you don't have..*Ok, ayat reka sendiri..*
That's All.... Assalamualaikum :)


p/s: saya bersyukur dengan elaun sara hidup 600++ sebulan

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3 february~

esok dah 3 februari kn..

kejap je dari stahun ke setahun tu..

tu la hakikat kehidupan..

dan tarikh kat atas tu dah jadi another important date yg akan sy ingat..

genaplah 3 tahun arwah nenek sy kembali kepada Yang Maha Pencipta..

nenek yg saya sayang sgt2..

nenek yg selalu menangkan sy..

mcm janggal pulak panggil nenek kan..

i used to call her mok..

the one yg jaga sy dr sekecik2 orang..

sampai bole jadi sebesar2 orang..

everytime I remember her now..

mesti terasa jari2 sy yg xberapa runcing ni dia genggam erat last time..

n betapa susahnye nak terima hakikat that she was not here anymore..

dr kecik tau dia ade..

that made me feel she would always be there for me..

n dulu2 whenever I drew story..

the story would be about a beautiful girl *budak2 mesti nk imagine one day will be beautiful girl@princess..mane ade nak imagine jd besar godang sampai semua baju jd sempit cm sy*

ok back to the story..

"it was a story of a beautiful girl...

stayed with her grandmother.. 

and they lived happily in the jungle..

in a very big and beautiful mansion..

and behind their mansion,

there was a hut (now I would think it is more to pharmacy)

where they stored a lot of the granny's medicines..

and the medicines were meant to make the granny stay alive and young..

and would never die forever (and now it sounds like cerita hantu or susuk rupenye)"

ok..

remembering thestoryline of my imagination makes me cry :(

how stupid i was to think i would never want her to leave me..

and I still think the same masa mok mula2 xde..

I thought I can't live without her..

but i manage to get through it..

even after she's gone almost every night I would dream of her..

and tak ingat pun since when she's no more in my dream..

betapa telitinya perancangan Allah kn..

dia tak terus bagi sy rasa hilangnya mok dlm sekelip mata..

Alhamdulillah..

for still be breathing..

and tonight I can recite Yassin for you mok..

May Allah ease your journey to Jannah..

Al-Fatihah~

p/s: i miss you so much..it just Him that can link me to you~

losing grip~

tajuk nak avril lavigne aje..

aha..

suke ati la nak tajuk ape..

tp 2 la ape yg sy rasa..

like i hv no stand to hold on..

it feels like when you are crossing hanging bridge..

gayat nooo~

alahai,

tahun2 akhir cmni slalu wat rasa tak tenteram,

jiwa berkecamuk,

marah xmenentu,

banyak persoalan yang berada di minda,

banyak tanda tanya dan juga kata kerja.eyh.

siap baca sambil nyanyi nampak? 

ok2..

back to business..

bile saat2 genting macam ni,

rasa mcm sume tak kena..

dah 5 tahun belajar pn rasa xtau pape..

and you should know that I'm a person with low self-esteem..

bile orang bagi sentap sket dah rasa

incomplete me.

then dah tak tau mana nak start balik dah.

huwaaa..

nape idup makin lama makin susah

dulu senang je idup..

nak balik umur 12 tahun..

main anak patung..

main kawen2..

main tudung botol..

n then no one would say to me..

"that's ok..

just take it easy..

thing would turn ok.."

cause the ones that I used to have..

I used to share laughs and tears..

are getting far and farther from me..

left me here all alone..

with my own imaginations and dream..

.....

then only I think,

maybe it's the way that Allah wants me to be..

to show me there's only Him no one other that would be..

the One and only to be held,

when I'm losing grip..

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I wish I were in the dream~

td tido saya mimpi saya jumpe dgn sorang budak.rambut blonde.comel.kiut.miut.peluk saya.nangis2 saya peluk budak tuh.so nama dia yg muncul dlm mimpi tu eve.dia student saya dkt gladstone.bile bangun trus bukan folder gamba2 dkt gladstone.

huwaaa..rindunye..walau hingus meleleh,pekat,hijau,likat..rindu jgk ngan diorg.mesti diorg dh besaq kan.rindu cikgu cantik tu jgk.ok.so rindu je lah nk ckp.orang kate kalau kite mimpi orang tu bmakna orang tu pun rindu kite?betul x ni?so,eve misses miss khazali? erk =.= ok tak2.miss khazali miss all room 1 members.hope one fine day we'll meet again.*in your dream* kalau duit dah lebih sgt pas dah g haji n umrah baru bole g auckland kot,n budak2 ni pun dah tua dah.

new challenges are coming~

alhamdulillah,already in Malaysia for 1 month and 19 days..seems it just a short length of time,but for me it's enough to adapt myself in Malaysia environment..the temperature which I need to bear for the rest of my life, the food which should be less than I had in NZ *ehem2*, the way people see me *ekhemmmm* and the way I look at people.. there are lots of differences but nothing to be compared.. every place has it's own good sides and also weaknesses.. it just ourselves which need to be flexible..chewwahh..

never mind, like you care all those things, right? what's important I'M BACK.. .. .. .. ?? ok I repeat it again I'M BACK.. *hope you have to shout YEAY in you mind* yes!!! I'm back to my home.. to my lovely family..they are missed a lot while I was there.. and the most recent, to my beloved maktab.. who says there was nothing to be missed about maktab? I would rather say, I love maktab, I miss lots of memories when I was here..even I'm already here, the memories could not be repeated *ehem2* but as the title would suggest, there are more and more challenges are coming..as usual, for TESL@TESOL students, the name of the course already makes us sounds or looks weird to others.. but the most recent gossip i heard about my cohort is, WE ARE RICH? *am I?* I think some of us, because they were working too hard while they were there,so I think their sacrifices and hardship are worth now.. but not ALL of us do.. because at least 1 *that is me* out of 59 is not rich.. but i like the gossip though, because I like to be called rich even I just"tumpang sekaki" the title..thanks for the DOA..Hopefully I will be rich as you wish..Aminnn~

ok, stop it.. Now I am moved on to hostel life.. Last year I was in apartment..everything provided..easy life there huh? the biggest challenge in hostel life is, I NEED TO WASH MY CLOTHES MANUALLY all the time..I hate washing clothes for sure..last time I just operated the machines until the clothes are ready to be folded..but now.........i'm not comparing ok..even at home my father does all the washing-clothes matter because it's his hobby I tell you..proud to have a very hardworking daddy..huhu..without my daddy, my days are difficult..sob sob.. and the last challenge is, I really need to take bath twice a day because I will be sweat easily here..haiyooo..you know that taking bath is the hardest part in my life? ok,got to take my bath now..salam~

I do miss my life in Auckland

But I am enjoying my life over here :)

ubat hati~

stress kan sejak akhir2 nih..status fb pun pelbagai..ade cam emo,ade mcm happy,ade mcm gatal..macam2
fasa lah senang citer..thanks to all the assignments for contributing to my high frequency level of stress *ahaks,orang2 maths baca nih sure mengetahui xde graf sedemikian dlm ilmu matematik mereka* that's ok..xremaja la kalau xde assignment kan..budak2 dulu panggil kerje sekolah@ rumah je,dah besar baru leh panggil assignment nih..tapi stress tu stress la jgk,nak2 kalau u r at the level of 80% of your assignment yang sgt3 super duper leceh,then suddenly just realise that you are not on the track..pergh!!rasa nak je melalak..tapi IMAN mengatakan TIDAK!! ape barang melalak2 nih..tu bisikan syaitonirrojim semata..and sebaik2 pengubat hati nih I tutup la telinga dengar lagu2 nasyid *dulu dengar kelly clasrkson tau kalau tension* and come across this song..again..after I've put on my FB wall..but at this time it's more practical..PANG!!! tertampar2 pipi nih.. let's have a look at this verse *if u'r javanese, then you should know this*


Tombo Ati iku limo perkorone

Kaping pisan moco Qur’an lan maknane

Kaping pindo sholat wengi lakonono

Kaping telu wong kang sholeh kumpulono

Kaping papat kudu weteng ingkang luwe

Kaping limo dzikir wengi ingkang suwe..




ok,for non-javanese mesti xphm knape sy tertampar dgr lagu ni,tapi bila diteranselet ke bahasa ibunda, 


sedarlah sy yg perasaan nak melalak n meraung tu datang dr hati yang tidak brape berTuhan..astaghfirullah..


ubat hati ada lima perkara,




yang pertama baca Quran dan maknanya,


yang kedua solat malam dirikanlah,


yang ketiga berkumpullah dengan orang2 soleh,


yang keempat perbanyaklah berpuasa,


yang kelima zikir malam berpanjanglah..




kalau bole wat 1 dr 5 tu pun dah bole jd ubat da..kalau 1 pun xde tu mula la datang segala macam penyakit 


hati tu kan..dah..semoga malam jumaat nih diberi kekuatan utk mencari Allah di samping memenuhi tuntutan fardhu kifayah..=))

tengok gamba budak2 ni pun bole jd ubat hati tau..

i should be busy,but i shouldn't..

keep yawning and off-tasking every two minutes..congrates yumna..memang x siap la assignment ko yang menimbun2 tuh..and orang2 putih korea and macam2 orang from all over the world kat sebelah nih pun pandang2 saya yang mneguap sopan sambil tuutp mulut..yes,I'm sleepy and tired! so what? i'm working with my half-opened eyes, half-concious mind..and everything comes half *except my clothes,opss..hhaaa*

1 word to say: penat.. YES, i am.. but Alhamdulillah for all the memories, experience and everything during this weekend..seronok,but at the same time those things make me really2 tired..the camping things,not enuf sleep and so on..i think kalau sekolah dulu2 wat camping pun dapat cuti peristiwa kot..then today i shouldn't think any bits of my study,and staying at home enjoying my sweet monday rest..but i choose not to..bcos I'M PAID TO STUDY!! but now i feel yeah, how i want to force myself to study if my mind is not ready..ok my sweet brain,let's have a rest today.. but pls be more energetic tomorow..okthanksbye.jom balik tido.